Such is Life

I know who I am
Do you?
All that I am
From all I've been through

I've been hurt too much
I've been lied to and played
Thinking each one was the answer
For all that I'd prayed

I bounced back with a broken spirit
Less trusting each time
Taking pause for healing
This soft heart of mine

I'm still standing still smiling
Also happily single
No longer desire
To couple up or to mingle

My desires are more toward
Exploring the great indoors
Immune to the charms 
Of the many man-whores 

My desires are for peace
Of spirit of mind
Of creating a body
More toned more defined

My desires are toward
Doing kind things for the many
Who have lost hope 
Down to a last penny

I know who I am 
So much more than I seem
Doing good in the world
Living the dream

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Give back, watch the ripple

Though the PIF movement is a few sandwiches short of a picnic, IMHO.
Can you tell that cliche is less than a fave?

Giving to others, expecting little to nothing in return, when receiving a great stroke of fortune, is part of my character.

The generosity without an agenda is a bright spot in the world.

Try it, please report back!

Lifetime of......

Every day, at every opp, learning is a quintessential joy for moi.

As Christian Carter succinctly said:
If you stop growing you're dying.

So, peeps, what does it mean to grow?

Being less of an academic scholar, more of a life scholar, to me, to grow, it's important to embrace change. Change is a beautiful, scary to some, still, a beautiful force that pulls one softly along into what becomes the future!

For this reason, bathing in the constant stream of change keeps excitement, verve, zest, propels me forward.

Sticking to the past. Music of the past, styles of the past, past lovers, past troubles, will put a person into a rut.

What is a rut? 

A rut is a feeling of slow creeping depressing misery that creeps up so stealthily like a boa constrictor squeezing the life out of its' prey.

How do you boil a frog?

S l o w l y.

Most people, like frogs, know enough to jump out of extreme heat. When the heat is turned up slowly, just like, slowly slipping into a rut, many people will stay, comfy, loving the moment. Enjoy, that is, until the depression, the feeling of stale, sets in.

There is still method to jumping into growth & excitement.

Change.

Possibly a wee bit uncomfortable for many.

This is what it's about.

When you begin this practice, it's a feeling of being as if you're growing younger. (Personal experience.)

Been there, doing it, considering designing a T- shirt!!!! 

I know my chrono age. Feeling as if I am 25 years or so is fantastic! 
No meds needed, love whatever is new. It excites my soul!

A lifetime of learning is so very worth it.

A lifetime of continual newness keeps me feeling the electric buzz! 

Keep going, m'loves! 

Continual newness keeps life fresh!

Miracles

 Do you believe in miracles?
Have you witnessed a miracle?
No?
Are you sure?

I hope you have witnessed miracles in your life thus far. Maybe you have witnessed miracles with having a lack of recognition.

What are modern miracles, you may ask? You may ask.

Every time you flip a light switch! The hours upon hours of study, trying & failure until trying & success brought this simple miracle of captured electricity.
If you are paying a utility bill, you are paying for a miracle (vs "praying" for a miracle!) See what I just did?? A miracle! *POOF*

Every blade of grass that pushes its' way out of a small seed, with all its' God given might through the weight of dirt plus gravity. It's fighting to be born.
Like the greatness inside of you!
It HAS potential. You have great potential.
It wants to be born.
Against all odds, against all forces. You were born, so, your potential wants to be born, to touch, to reach, to grow, to be.

To grow into who you can be. The choice is yours.

When I need a miracle, when I want to witness a miracle?
I plant something. Admittedly, it's a part of me, to grow the plant beings of the earth. My daddy had a huge garden most summers.
He showed me the possibilities of seeds, plants.
Astounding! 
He hoed the rows, showed me how to drop the seeds a certain space apart, then, we went back to cover each seed with just enough dirt. A few weeks later, there were rows of hundreds of little green sprouts peeking up out of the earth.
Those sproutings grew into plants that fed our large family, as well as extended family. 
Daddy's garden skills fed us through the GM strikes, lay offs, recession, winter heating bills, threatened financial instability.

It taught me the joy of growing plant beings.

Yes, plants are beings, too. 

Put this miracle producing method to task if you wish, if you are so inclined to need a miracle or to create one for yourself.
It takes desire, time, plus the most important aspect of caring enough to nurture another being from a speck of a seed to a plant.

Other miracles?

Are you here?

Hello?

OH! There you are! 

You 
are
a 
miracle.

A miracle of thousands of years of evolving species. 
Human Species.

In the past couple months, for a reason I know not, I was in a funk.
Some call it a rut, low place, depression (maybe). I felt so sad.
I cried myself to sleep at night, I slept any moment possible. 

Peeps!

My housekeeping suffered. This was a further hindrance to happy.

Yesterday, I awoke with the haze of sadness lifted. The possible cause of chasing the boogeys was that I MADE myself get to the laundromat to wash clothes, bed linens, towels, even rugs! The feeling that the fresh scent of cleanliness gave me, had impact!

https://youtu.be/hjdbXdTt48E 

It took strength + effort to push to do that!

Why couldn't I have done it earlier?

Ah dunno.

This, to my heart, was a miracle. Am so deeply grateful for it.

Overhauling my kitchen was first.
Then my bedroom.
(Several loads of laundry)
Then my bathroom.
If it doesn't seem like a miracle to you, it's okay, it felt like it.

I'll take it!
I'll acknowledge then be grateful for it.
There was help.
What help?
MUSIC!
PRAYER!
SUNSHINE!
CHOCOLATE!

Miracles of electricity, birdsong, instantly available nourishment.
(Ah loves mah lettuce, spinach, carrot & bell pepper beings!)

Peeps, I challenge you to look for your own personal miracles in your life, then cherish that which you find. If you have progeny, there ya go.
If not, then plant something or just sit there, breathe in, breathe out, look at the beautiful green beings singing as they grow around you.

This is the miracle of life. Enjoy it!

Going Back

It's often said you can never go back
I've learned that it's so untrue
Soon I'll be living the dream
Of soaking in the ocean blue

Basking in the warm sunshine
In the company of a good friend
The excitement is starting to build
Starting this very weekend

It's not a Coldplay epic concert
It's not all the millions I've got (☺)
I'll focus on the blessings I have
Instead of those I have not

Reaping in the happiness
Gathering all of the sweet
Letting myself feel joy
With every new day I greet

Here we go ready or not
With our adventurous plans
It's clear to see it's no mystery
I just had to back to the islands

Watching the palm trees sway
Watch the sun set then rise
On golden sands
I just had to go back to the islands

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Touch My Soul ~ Coldplay!

                                                   Yeah.


At times I can be somewhat dense, a bit of a thicker plank. It's important to delve deep, to figger things out. When touched by anything or anyone, it causes pauses. 😁

Dwelling on something until it's figured out why someone or something enters my path, catches my attention. 

Musht Inveshtigate!

Wondering within & without why the music of this boyband touches me like it does.

Oh, the guys are, all four, insanely attractive, multi-talented, yet, there's more to it.

Their sexy British accents help.

They are, all 4, very humble, very honest, open, approachable, reachable. Those traits, being present in all members of a music band is so very rare.
They are so very different in so many good ways.

Good people. Imperfect, good people.

I remember the first time I heard The Scientist, so much truth, raw emotional confession of feeling. Confession that only one man has ever shown me, fully meaning it, with words from his heart. 

He will remain a mystery to all until I see him again.

If you care to listen to this heartfelt, very touching song.

https://youtu.be/gm-Y9idMMQ4

Come out to meet you 
Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

How touching is that?
The answer, deeply touching. The heart that this song comes from is, indeed, a beautiful heart. Guy or girl. Few people are so in touch with their feels that they can compose words with music like this. 

Trillions of people, one planet, millions of musicians & composers.

The music of Coldplay (they were almost called Starfish!) is truly as unique as the musicians, themselves. Chris Martin often closes his eyes while performing. He's into it, he's swaying, bobbing his head, rocking to and fro in full hip thrusts working the pedals on the piano as he plays.
He's REALLY expressive.
By contrast, Jonny Buckland, has his moves. He moves slightly to the left, when playing guitar onstage, sometimes he moves very slightly to the right. 
He's focused. 
It's crystal that he and Chris are close friends. When Chris approaches Jonny during a performance, Jonny's smile lights up the stage!!!!! Especially during the song, Heroes, when Chris looks in Jonny's eyes, telling Jonny that if he could be King, Jonny could be Queen!
Akin to one dude asking another dude:
"Hey, how's your wife & my kids?"
Obviously joking. (maybe!)

Guy Berryman is just insanely hott - hott - hott! He is so focused, when onstage. He rarely looks up from his guitar. He's a guitar god! As a very stoic Scotsman, when he looks up, when he smiles, OH! Be still, my heart! Ladies ~ he's married. *sigh* I can still look.

Why does the music of this group touch me so very profoundly?
Easy answer.
Their words & music are as profound as the band members are.

They hold an element that is rare in today's world. Actually, they display many elements that are precious AND rare.

Honesty
Truthfulness
Sincerity
Humility
Kindness
Caring
Generous
Approachable
Music without bitches & ho's references

They sing of genuine feelings in such an original way that very few musicians do. Chris hits high notes, his voice sometimes cracks, he has been known to forget the words to a song.
This is when he stops, apologizes, admits, asks the audience if it's okay with them if he starts the song over.
It's all a part of his infectious charm.

The few times that Will Champion (drummer) has sang in one of Coldplays concerts, he killed it! He did such a great job! It makes  me wonder if he might sing lead vocals more often in the future!
When Will is on drums he is REALLY working it, giving all that he has in his performance. Fascinating to watch.

This, along with so much more, is how Coldplay has touched my soul at a time in my life when I need it more than ever.

No one ever said it was easy. 
No one ever said it would be this hard.

What's it all about?

 Yellow

The ditty by Coldplay.

What's it all about?

Jonny Buckland: Bananas
Chris Martin: I wrote it in 10 minutes, to make my mates giggle.
Will Champion: Um, ask Guy.
Guy Berryman: (silence with a smile)

This is honesty. This is truthfulness.
Guys & Gals ~ This is Coldplay.

As Chris Martin, when asked by Howard Stern said, "The stars are not really yellow, are they?"
Chris Martin: "No, of course stars are not yellow, except, maybe on Christmas cards. Everyone knows that, Howard."

Howard Stern, was, momentarily stumped. VOILA! Voici le fool!

Chris Martin is a self taught musician, he speaks bits of several languages. He is the front man for Coldplay. He explains it like this, with his animated face, irresistible smile, sparkling blue eyes:

"Well, it's like this. When you work with three very intelligent men who are smart enough to remain quiet, I'm a natural loudmouth. So, I'm the loud mouth in the group, I'm rather dim, so, I'm also a loudmouth while the other guys are the good looking ones. They are smart enough to remain quiet & let me loose to look like an idiot!"

Talented, witty, self deprecating, intelligent. Coldplay. 

I would say that Chris Martin, along with the other 3 guys in the band are all fantastically talented, handsome guys. It's pointed out how Guy is the hottest one, Mr. G.Q. Have to admit, he is hott! A true guitar god!
From the  courageous leaps they have all taken, none are yellow.

Guy Berryman, of course he's hot, he's a Scot! Look at that jawline, the great hair! *sigh*

 

Lovely Spirituality

We are spiritual beings having an earthly physical experience.

Exercising arms, legs, back, abs as physical beings, makes a body stronger, more developed. Tuning into the spiritual side, listening to it, will make a person stronger spiritually.

On occasions when I shared this precious part of my life experience with persons in my trust, they were astounded, even a bit envious.

It's something so intimate, I share it with very few.

On a daily basis, I am cradled in the arms of whom can only be the Holy Spirit. The still, small voice who comforts, guides, prompts, instructs. It's been a learning process. Learning to listen.

Being imperfect, a sinner who tries to be a better human ~ yup. Me.

I'm one who subscribes more to spirituality, less to organized religion.

Being guided by the spirit is a daily aspect in my life as it can be in everyone's life. It's everywhere. It exists without the need to go to a church, a synagogue, a mosque, a temple or even a forest. 
Many people believe going to an organized religion affiliated place such as a home or building, will make them a better person.

It's something that many people are conditioned to believe. Socially conditioned, parental conditioned to believe.

Sitting in a church won't make someone a better person any more than sitting in a garage will turn a person into an automobile. Sitting inside a barn won't turn a person into a horse or cow, either.

Was that a news flash for you? You smiled, didn't you? Good!

Many of my spiritual experiences are too personal to share online. I will share my most recent experience which is less intimate.

I was inspired to send a rather large amount of help to someone. The spirit was prompting me over and over. I was a bit reticent. Finally, when I knew I would be out of town, unable to use the resources to send this help I was prompted to send, I sat down, said a prayer, followed the promptings.

A week later, the person I had sent the help, to, contacted me. She had a rather dire medical emergency. The help I sent was the exact amount needed to cover the medical emergency. The HS knew.

People will, at times be untruthful, at times be truthful. The HS is always truthful, can always be trusted. 
It's my role to listen, to obey. 

Having experienced this during my entire life, I know that listening to the HS is more of a privilege which is to be embraced, then reaping the protection the inspiration provides. The HS will only speak to those who are open to the messages given.

Everyone has this privilege, it's up to everyone as to what they do with it.
As to whether each person listens so as to encourage promptings.

Do as thou wilt. 

Know this. 

It's always, always a choice!

Memorable

Precious to me in life:

An Alpha males declaration of love

Kisses & hugs from a child

Sunday conversations with my youngest
Elephant garlic! Mmm!

Apologies

Sincerity

A horse who accepts me as I am

Living in freedom

The scent of testosterone

Friendship

Abundance of nourishment

My high energy level

My country

Sacrifice of Military people (Thank you, so much, from my heart!)

Kind people

This is what comes to my mind in wee hours of the morning, watching wedding videos for my needed dose of romance aka happiness!

There's more.

Bitten

It starts as a gentle breeze subtle to the eyes
Slowly moving as a sunset or sunrise
Softly

It continues as steady as a river as it flows

As steady as the progress in the opening of a rose

Steady

It takes a heart with sureness of form

Giving a feeling of release of warm

Building

It brings such feelings of climbing elation

The hum of a songs melodious vibration

Sensuous

You're losing weight feeling happier than ever

Without realizing you have slowly caught the fever

New love.

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Vocal Quality

When I answer my cellie, then hear the greeting:

"Hi Mom!"

I know who it is. My first born, sweet baby who is now an elderly baby. She has a unique perspective, one of a kind, her own way of doing things.

People tell me she looks a lot like me.

WHAA??????

Looking at this gorgeous girl with a deviously creative mind, a heart of gold, if she looks so much like me I'm one hot mama!

She's quite a surprise, starting at birth. You see, I have strawberry blonde hair with light green eyes. When I named her in my heart at the age of 15, I pictured her looking more like me.

She was so beautiful at birth, just as she was. A full head of fine black hair that curled up at the ends, violet eyes.

She was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen and she was mine, all mine! That was my first impression of motherhood.

Watching her grow, mature, go through her trial & error, I held my breath, held back from helping her too much. Loving her enough to believe in her that she could handle life as I had taught her to.

When we were making her wedding dress, although she was late or a no show for half of the fitting appointments, I'm still happy that we did it. She looked so beautiful in her Hawai'ian wedding dress!

Married to her prince of choice, she will only live close enough to me to drive for a visit for 2.5 months longer. *sigh*

When I visit her, in San Antonio, at the end of my visit, she stands in the front yard, seeing me off as I prepare to drive away. Her long brown beautiful hair, gleaming eyes, her sweet smile, I see my little girl, again.

I love her so much. 

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