It Was Always There

The love I had in my heart felt like something was missing

 More about who I was less about who I was kissing

So many people search for "the one" for most their life

Only finding the pain of abuse laced with strife

Still others will find their soul mate with all happiness

Losing them sooner than planned back to loneliness

Often the pain drives them to drugs or to alcohol

The higher love you feel the deeper you can fall

I lost myself to become someone I didn't recognize

Becoming what he wanted though imperfect in his eyes

Ending a long marriage is painful even when it's for the best

Turning back into who I really was put my wits to the test

Being about revenge dress or revenge body wasn't my way

More about mending my soul for myself day by pained day

Deciding to fly solo like an eagle or a strong lady hawk

Changing everything to match my inner private self-talk

Happiness paired with meaning is the key to staying strong

Having myself as my own best friend for a blessed lifelong

That which had been forgotten I restored in my very own soul

Better than any man could do in making me again feel whole

Here on Earth

In this world where very little is as it seems

It's so pure to have only the belief in your dreams

Liars will lie users will use cheaters will cheat

Worming their way into your very heartbeat

Belief in yourself with quiet confidence

Can be your savior sent from providence

Those who are supposed to love you 

Will only be heartfelt as one that is true

Children grow up receiving then they surely forget

Sacrifices of their mothers which later they regret

For the parents move through time then cease to be

Their children soon find that they are never regret free

Those who have more love for money than anyone at all

Will be convinced it's wrong at the second trumpet call

It's only then they will see the deep pain they cause 

When they are shown how wrong in self-given pause

Sexual harm perpetrated on hundreds by those males

Who sought in selfishness in self-control fails

This too will visit the minds of those who can't forget

When the wracking of evil doing comes back as regret

Here on Earth we are acting in the time all are alive

By spirit by hormones by all that we can strive

At times we feel that we can't be touched not ever

Deep down we all know that none of us lives forever

What can we do with our mortal lives our mortal selves

We can place I and me upon the much lower shelves

Let your light of kindness take over in the rule most raw

Strive each day to live in the spirit of the higher law

This will bring joy as we were meant to have each day

Which light brings to us when darkness is pushed away

The higher law gives birth to charity to self-respect

Serving up abundance to guide to sweetly protect