Right now, the tears are flowing freely. I feel all kinds of sad, numb, shocked, in disbelief. I thought today was going to be a birthday party.
It was a balloon release for a birthday for someone that I knew as an acquaintance. He had passed on & I didn't know.
He passed on around July 1 -2.
Given the facts that I was in the birthday funk in July, going through a lot with a counselor, then, prepping for a drive to Colorado (August 2 - September 11)
I could excuse myself, yet, I just won't!
Nakoda "Koda" Sims worked at the bank in Walmart, my Texas bank. The people who work there have always (except for 1 person) been very courteous, personable, more than just bank employees.
They have lives, children, friends, family ~ all outside of work. They are so much more than outstanding bank employees.
Personally?
I see them as so much more than the people who work at the bank.
I love to serve, to do nice things for others. When one of the cool girls at the bank said she had a bad craving for the tri-flavor popcorn that comes in a big metal container, I searched, found, bought & brought it to her. Love to do those things that bring a bit of happiness to others.
Some people take it the wrong way.
Guys think I'm coming onto them, that I want sex with them, now.
Girls wonder when I'm going to give an Avon or Mary Kay pitch.
The truth is? I'm just a nice person. I like to help others. Simple.
Mostly, it's simple. I enjoy meeting new people, exchanging witty banter, hearing them tell me about themselves.
That's it.
Right there.
Many people might have visible agendas or hidden agendas. Sad.
It puts many people on their guard, wondering if I want sex from them, or money, or narcissistic supply, or something else.
99.9% of the time, I may find the person to be a good person, male or female & simply want to be their friend.
WHAT A DARK, SEEDY, DISGUSTING, DEVIANT CONCEPT.
I'm upfront, I say what I mean and I mean what I say. If I'm interested in more than friends (aka sexual interaction) the other person will have it crystal. There will be zero room for doubt.
It's a foreign concept in today's world.
Limitations are non-existent. Age, race, gender, religion. Irrelevant.
Grasp that, grab it, turn it over and over in your brain until it makes sense. Until you can understand that people are all just people.
When I would go to the bank (in Walmart) to do my *shock* banking stuff. Koda was often there. A very nice, professional, courteous guy with a smile and a great sense of humor. Sometimes when I was doing some shopping in that happy place called Walmart, he would be on a break, not realizing how quiet he is. He often sneaked up on me, he was so quiet!
He often startled me! Sometimes, I even screamed. He'd apologize over and over, it was actually funny!
So, we had a few brief chuckles. (He had to go back to work)
We had a few conversations when there were no customers waiting in line behind me. Such a smart guy.
Koda totally got it. He knew I wasn't a cradle robber looking for a crypt robber. I was simply being myself, a nice person who enjoys being kind. No agenda, no ulterior motives. I was just being nice to him because I believe in being a decent human being.
Believing in treating others with kindness is my basic character.
Today 22 purple balloons were released, he would have been 22. Balloons in his fave color, purple.
A life that had barely begun. Way too young to die.
I feel so sad, like a light in the world has gone out.
He will be missed by so many people.
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