Tuesday, July 22, 2025

I Could Be...

Ripe papaya melts like butter in my mouth. Remembering how much I loved it the first time I had it, straight from the tree at someone's home in Hawai'i. Have loved it since then. Papaya from Hawai'i tastes the best, though if the only papaya I can get is grown elsewhere, I'll take it.
It's those moments, savoring papaya, it seems I could be happy as someone who followed a vegetarian or vegan way of life.
I could be.




Freshly sliced up mango is such a delight for the taste buds. Mango can be very acidic, strongly flavored or mild. Either way, it can replace any sweet treats such as chocolate, cake or cookies any time. It has a slightly tangy, slightly earthy flavor. As long as it's somewhat firm. The mushy ones are over ripe, only good in a smoothie. 




Just one of these gems makes it seem that I don't ever want chicken or steak or salmon ever again. It's that good.

Guava is an experience unto itself! It's a bit seedy, grainy, yet the flavor is such a mouth explosion. Natural guava is far less sweet than the juices sold in stores. A lot of sugar is added to it.
The travesty in that is that all you taste is sugar, the flavor & texture is lost in all that high fructose corn syrup.

Give me the actual fruit over all that sugar, any time.




Lilikoi is known by its more common name, passion fruit. How the name went from something beautiful that drips like honey on the tongue to something, so common sounding is a bit sad. Like most tropical fruits, it has lots of seeds that have to be cleansed out to get to the flesh. Like guava, the natural flavor is far less sweet than the commercially sold passion fruit products.





In Hawai'i, there is a bakery known for their Lilikoi or Guava Chiffon cakes. Dee Lite Bakery on Dillingham Blvd, Honolulu, HI.
I remember it well! 
They also have other locations, look it up next time you are in the neighborhood. 
Their cakes & pastries are loved all over the islands.

Oh, if I go back to visit, I will have to get some.




Lychee is not native to Hawai'i, it's still so delicious to me, fresh off the tree. When I have gone to the Aloha Stadium Swap Meet, it was the best place to get fresh lychee that had been freshly picked. Lychee is funny that way. The flavor changes the longer it has been since it was separated from the tree. The fleshy fruit once the rind is peeled has a very mild flavor compared to other tropical fruits. When I ate it, I ate it by itself as the flavors of anything else would overpower the natural lychee experience.
The flavor is citrusy with a hint of watermelon or a cross of strawberry, pear, even a hint of rose petals.  




Yes, I must include avocados! Those gold mines of nutrition are so under rated! For many years, even when my money was low, I ate one small avocado most days. Some days, I ate only half, the money was well spent. Though some people prefer to add it to a smoothie or make guacamole, I prefer to just cut it in half, remove the pit, scoop it out of the shell with a spoon. The health benefits of fresh, ripe avocado are so numerous, listing them here would be a blog entry on its own. So, those of you who think it's too cost prohibitive? 
Pay the farmer today or pay the doctor & big pharma later.




Though watermelon isn't tropical, it's one of those I can eat every day. It's as healthy, nutritious & beneficial as it is tasty.
Every Saturday, sometimes Sunday, I buy a watermelon, cut it into bitesize chunks, keep it in the fridge. It staves off sugar cravings. What is lesser known about watermelon is that it has a high amount of L- arginine. An appetite suppressant.
An amino acid that helps the body build protein. Watermelon is also very high in antioxidants which ease the effects of human aging. 
Vitamins C, A & B6 are also present in high amounts.
The fiber & water is also a really good reason to regularly chow down on a bowl of fresh watermelon. 


When I saw that my Doberman puppy, PJ, loves watermelon, I started buying the seedless variety. The seeds can cause intestinal blockage. This can even result in death for a dog. Seedless for us.
Here's a bonus:
To choose a sweet, juicy watermelon. Look at the "navel", the spot where it was picked from the vine. Look for the smallest dot of a navel. It should be heavy, symmetrical, with a few yellow spots that indicate it ripened on the vine so, it will be very sweet, juicy.

People often remark that my skin is very glowy. That I look younger than my chronological age. 
Am unsure about all that. What I do know is that I guard my health very closely. 
People often comment that I don't have crow's feet around my eyes.
That the skin on my neck is so smooth.
Marionette lines are barely there.
Beauty is fine, I just want to be so healthy that I go to sleep one night, then don't wake up the next day.
What a great way to go if I must.
With so much goodness from the earth that can benefit the human body, bless it with such good nutrient. Yes, please!

Personally, I believe that the time that I lived in Hawai'i affected me in so many ways. Most of them are highly beneficial. Mainly, I learned to love the abundance of fresh fruit, fresh veggies.

I could easily be vegan or vegetarian.

A bit of humor.


Sunday, July 20, 2025

Relationships & Situationships

 


Those who cease to love you will drop away as time passes
Those who you cease to love will also drop away with time
Moving forward to places with much greener grasses
To grow to change to be thalamic if you suppose
A person stops reaching out or stops reaching back to you
Or the relationship has run its full course in your life
Sometimes hurting a heart that was lovingly true
Freeze outs tell you, you don't matter to them
When a relationship becomes one sided it's dead
It's evolved into one person just using the other one
Only with their permission it's so often said
Teaching them what you will only accept
It can be happy or moot or sometimes even can be sad
Like the true words to Michael Jacksons song
Why don't you just scream and shout too bad
In your life for a reason or a season or for your whole life
Whether you still love them in your heart and mind
Whether a friend a sibling husband or a wife
Too bad Too bad too unhealthy to stay
Letting go is a principle that's easier to say than to do
We see it in yard sales murders broken hearts
Set them free with the words I release you
Love them though they are gone





Tuesday, July 15, 2025

Pain & Pleasure







Pleasure before pain can sometimes work out
Pain before pleasure can often work in
Though many scholars may be so in doubt
Saying that to skip suffering is such a sin

Let us see if pleasure first is truly so wrong
Test it out yourself if you desire to dare
Excess revelry in dancing drink with song
An attitude of not bothered enough to care

The party before the pains all set in
Pride that remains after the long slow fall
It wasn't such a disdained human sin
Was deliciously worth the pain after all 






Sunday, July 13, 2025

The Hand




The hand that holds the leash must be firm yet kind
If the one who is leashed will learn to pay mind
For a beast is still a beast who must do as master says
Happier in life when the pretty fur beast obeys
If only it were that simple for two beings so unalike
Spending endless days in fetch or going on a hike
Our fur babies are at the mercy of some who can be mean
Who at times abuse where they cannot be seen
They cannot talk to say if they are suffering or well
Oh if only they spoke as humans with the tales to tell
All that can be done is for each of us to be
The sort of person in private like the public one they see
Pain inflicted on babies who walk on all fours
Hurts them more as their lives are shorter than ours
Many would forfeit their lives protecting another being
From dangers that a person might not even be seeing
Scratching their backs or their bellies if you must
If you are lucky enough to have gained a fur baby's trust
A bit of chicken in their twice per day kibble
Giving them a treat of some cheese just a nibble
That is all it takes to make these lovely little ones happy
A paw at your thigh or a joyful nosing in your lappy
His life will be shorter than mine, my PJ, well I know
So, I cherish him always just enjoying watching him grow




 

Saturday, July 12, 2025

Going More Global






How do you see yourself?
Oh, there's the mostly obvious.
Male
Female 
Race
Height
Weight  
Ethnicity
I see myself as a small-town girl who made one very influential decision that has shaped my life for the near entirety of it.
I'm average in looks, way above average in smarts. After my last official IQ test, the score was 189.
WHOA!!!!!
Although I'm a polyglot 5, learning languages is easy for me. Though I do have to apply myself a little, just a little! It's my bread & cream cheese, my needlework obsession enabler, my puppy kibble, my...............
I think you get the gist.

Recently, my blog stats have shown that my dear readers, that means you. YES YOU! My readers are from 70 countries! Seventy!
 
Hoollee smokes!

Never would I ever have thought that my writing, my musings of a creative sort would interest anyone that much. 
Ah guess ah was wronngg.

Some of them might be scammers who are data mining.
Yeah, buddy, just try! If you enjoy wasting your time.
Having helped over 200 people to see through the stunts that scammers pull, I won't say no one can scam me. I can only say that they would have to work so hard to do it. It would probably take 6 teams a whole year. 
One aspect of my life that would make it difficult is that I will NEVER hand over money to anyone I don't personally know & love unless I'm face to face with them in real life. In the flesh or no biscuit. Even then. I will only give, never lend.
No zoom meeting or skype or face time. Nope.
Plus, since I worked so much to be in a mindset of being happy being single & celibate since 2012, there is nothing any romance scammer could offer me that I would ever want.
Having my dream career, making enough cheddar to provide for myself, helps. Being just as happy in my own company as I would be if I had a romantic relationship is also a big help. Having PJ as company is such great joy for me. He is so smart, so sweet, so playful, loves me no matter what. Every day he changes just a little.
He constantly amazes me.

Some people have told me that the appeal of my blog is that I'm so sincere. That I'm very open without over sharing. I'll leave the over sharing to Val! Ha ha!

Maybe it's because I'm genuine as well as genuinely happy in a world where so many seek it, yet it eludes them.

Who I present myself as being in this blog is who I am in real life. During fauxvid lockdown, I gained weight that I'm still struggling to lose. Thanks to PJ, I have lost half of it. I cancelled my gym membership permanently. PJ keeps me very active. One hour at the dog park every day. He runs the length of the fenced in area. Sometimes I run it with him. Most of the time I walk it! A minimum of 10 times from the front gate to the back fence, sometimes even 20.
I'm on the Doberman Fitness Program.

Things that I love are: 

Needlework (of course!)
Traveling (PJ goes where I go)
Chocolate 
(My birthday is on July 14, decadent chocolate cake? YASSSS!)
Flowers from Hawai'i (Only the ones with a strong scent)
Star Trek - Anything to do with Star Trek!
The moon, it fascinates me!
Yoga
Meditation
The taste of cilantro - it gives me deja vu vibes - weird, huh?

Pet Peeves:

Wishy washy people
People who make promises you know they don't intend to keep
People who sound a horn instead of saying hello or coming to my door to get me. How lazy can a person be? Please don't answer.
People who are tech addicted, won't put their phone down.
Animal abuse
Child abuse
Any abuse of any living creature except house flies!
House flies
Cops who abuse their authority


Being transparent, it took a lot of work to get to this emotional - spiritual - psychological state of bliss. I struggled, tried then failed, made mistakes, also made some very good choices along the way. I'm grateful to the guy who broke my heart in August 2012. Having my heard broken so severely, it created my resolve to never let it happen again. Because I did allow it, I won't allow it ever again.
It's a choice.

This brings me to a note of gratitude. I'm grateful to the people all over the world who read my blog, who message me or don't message me. People who comment or don't comment. I write because it gives me pleasure. Although it does garner a bit of attention, I have never been one who wants or needs a lot of attention. 
My social media is devoid of endless selfies of me making duckface for the camera. Never have videoed myself doing cool stuff or endless pictures of what I have for a meal or snack. It would get far more attention than I'm comfortable with. My youngest child keeps in close regular touch with me which I love. My other 3 adult children have FB, Instagram, LinkedIn. I'm sure they were unaware that I know. That's fine for them.
It's very rare that I see them in person or even get a call or a card. Poring over their Instagram would hurt too much. It's true that the ones whom you love have more of a chance to hurt you. The deeper you love them, the deeper the wound will be. 
Well, that just sux.






Being content to write, share photos of PJ & my needlework is enough for me. Enough for now.

Getting to this state of being took a lot of work. It was far from easy, yet it was so worth it.







Saturday, July 5, 2025

Up, Up, Out of The Bunny Hole





For a long time, I felt stuck. 
Have you ever felt stuck?
If you have, you will know it.
The ridiculous part of it is that I allowed it. I was hanging out with people who have "stuck" energy around them. After spending time with them I consciously felt myself sliding down that insidious bunny hole. In essence, I did it to myself.
My cute clothes began to shrink so that they didn't fit like they used to. On days that I had dedicated to cleaning & organizing, the call from someone to go out, have some fun, eat foods that I knew were unhealthy was impossible for me to resist.
The end result was a cluttered, disorganized living space. Then, an onslaught of depression, anxiety, shame & fear that if anyone saw my mess that it would be deeply embarrassing. 
So many times, I would begin to get it under control only to backslide into the new living habits that got me stuck to begin with. I was bunny hopping. 1 step forward, 4 steps back.
UGH!
After all, it's nearly always more fun to go to restaurants, shopping, out & about with a friend or friends. Sadly, I came to the realization that these people were more like enablers than they were, friends.
I'm NOT a victim. I allowed it, I went along with it, I went down that path that got me stuck, willingly.

If anyone was going to help me to get out of the mess, it had to be me. I did it & I was going to have to undo it.

If at first you find zero success, meh, just go to bed early, tomorrow will be another day. Why put off until the next day when you can put it off until the next month, maybe next year.

Because preserving my health is so important to me, I started giving myself non-food rewards after making a bit of progress. 
Who's a good girl? Me.
Getting into the nail salons in the town where I live, even with an appointment, is hard. Mani/pedi/wax is what I used to do until having to wait 25 minutes past my appointment time 4 times in a row. The small-town area where I live is at least 60 miles from a bigger city setting.
Then, I began buying flowers for myself. Flowers from Hawai'i! That was becoming somewhat cost prohibitive. Although the cost of flowers from Hawai'i is the same as ordering an arrangement to be delivered.
Then, I began allowing myself to take a night off of working. Instead, to work on a needlework project. That can become dangerous to my career. There were other approaches that I tried that had little to zero effect. It was important enough that I felt compelled to try different approaches until something worked.

*MIND SHIFT*

An idea occurred to me that maybe the reward can be only letting myself have one hour of cleaning & decluttering per day. The scarcity principle, if you will. Knowing that after that alarm sounds, I have to stop for the rest of the day, until the next day.

*BINGO*

It is a relatively new development in my attempt to claw my way up out of the hole I dug for myself. Just today, I put three large lawn bags of clutter plus 3 broken down boxes in the recycling dumpster. Woo hoo! Go, me! 
That's just the living room area. *sigh*
Still, it's a good start.
The reward for my efforts, just 2 days in a row?
Stay tuned.



Friday, July 4, 2025

Just Listen






Do you have a favorite song?
Such a banal question.
The answer may reveal more than many would like to admit, would even pay much attention to. Something so simple that can say so much. It says much about the inner thoughts, inner workings of how a person thinks inside their head where only they can hear.

Is it a song of unrequited love?  Social injustice? Courage under fire or just courage itself? Triumph? Comfort? Hopes? Dreams? Life lived?

Since I'm the one writing, I will tell you of a song that plays in my head, in a loop. It plays in my mind when I see the horrors of injustice in the ways animals are treated mostly by humans who are heartless in the way they abuse them. Specifically abusing them for reproduction to get money from selling the puppies.
There are so many forced matings of dogs on You Tube.
The female might be held by her ears, one of the most sensitive parts on a dog.
She is screaming in terror, in pain, held down while the male dog is voluntarily or forced to mount her against her protests.
Some of these inhumane poor excuses for humans even ZIP TIE the dogs together, once a coital tie has occurred. Dogs will stay locked together without being zip tied to each other. 
That first loud yelp after the first of 2 -5 zip ties are tightened on the dogs is gut wrenching. The two guys smiling & laughing about it is worse.
The zip ties go across the male dogs back which has thicker skin & fur. The zip ties are noticeably binding & pinching the thin, hairless, sensitive skin across the female's belly. The welts are already showing once the zip ties are in place. So, she has the uncomfortable pain of the male dog's penis, swelled up inside her genitals plus having zip ties cutting into the skin of her belly.
Both animals are whimpering in pain, squirming to try to escape the pain being inflicted on them by humans, putting the dogs in pain during mating. Often the female has her mouth tied closed with a rag. Her muffled screams & crying are audible. She is then bound up with a chain or a rope so she can barely move. Essentially, she is helpless, raped, harmed just so the evil owners can get money from selling her puppies.

Dogs KNOW what to do, they do it naturally. 

It's the horribly cruel humans who force the dogs to mate, that are so ignorant & ignoring the harm they are obviously causing. 
Something that makes it worse is that You Tube allows the Cretans to post the videos of the obvious abuse of animals.

When any of these videos come up in my feed, I report them. I get an email from You Tube, thanking me for the report. The video remains. Sometimes, the videos are simply marked as "Mature Content" or "Over 18 Content".
Where is the scorn for such obvious abuse of helpless animals. Forced to mate.
Forced to endure.
Screaming in terror.
Screaming in pain.

The humans inflicting the pain are often smiling, laughing, holding the animals down to force them to produce offspring so the people can get money from the suffering & pain of their animals.

Puppy mills get a lot of press.
The puppy & kitten mills are often raided, shut down, fined.
What can be done about the horrendous You Tube videos of semen extraction, of forced mating, of inflicting trauma & physical harm specifically on dogs.

The humane breeding of animals is completely different. Some breeders will simply put a female in heat, in a pen with a male that she likes. If she is ready, if she wants to, she will mate. She is flirty, playful, enjoying the "courting" of the male dog. 
That is something very different from the abusive forcing.
The dogs are voluntarily mating. The female is calm, she is playful, she is allowing the male dog to mount then "tie" with her.
Puppies will be born to a female dog minus the trauma of being forced to mate.

The abuse of children is also very terrible, gets more notice when children are being harmed. Because animals are considered property, they rank a bit lower in abuse prevention.

My favorite song?
Have you guessed it?



Particularly, the version sang by Karen Carpenter.

Yeah, with all of the ageist, racist nastiness of the female name,
Karen. I'm sure Karen Carpenter would have something to say about the use of her namesake in such a terribly racist, abusive way.

The song says so clearly what I'm thinking when these abusive videos come up in my feed.

Bless the beasts and the children
For in this world they have no voice 
They have no choice
Bless the beasts and the children
For the world can never be
The world they see
Light their way
When the darkness surrounds them
Give them love
Let it shine all around them
Bless the beasts and the children
Give them shelter from the storm
Keep them safe
Keep them warm
Light their way
When the darkness surrounds them
Give them love
Let it shine all around them
Bless the beasts and the children
Give them shelter from the storm
Keep them safe
Keep them warm, the children, the children, the children

The song is one of compassion, of awareness of the vulnerability of children & animals. Of the way they need protection, kind or at least humane treatment. Something missing in the world of 2025.
When an animal is being abused, there is very little they can do to stop it, often little chance of fleeing the one(s) abusing them.
They have no voice; they have no choice.

Human children up to a certain age also are abused without recourse. I endured one of those nightmare childhoods. A mother who was a diagnosed paranoid schizophrenic. A father who was a raging, mean spirited alcoholic. You can only imagine the horrors.

I wish You Tube would step up, ban the videos that these horrible people are allowed to post. Stem some of the profit that the people videoing them, abusing animals can get.




Locked in or Locked out

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